About 5 days ago I was sitting on an airplane enroute to Austin and got major intuition to just start writing down everything I desire in my dream man.

I started writing, writing, writing… and before I knew it, I had a HUGE list.

It felt so empowering to create that list. So freeing. So… LIBERATING.

As I’ve mentioned in other posts, I know we have the power to create anything we want.

And I feel I’m so much closer to my “order” now.

I know the process works.

Have you seen my boyfriend test?

A few years ago I’d created a boyfriend test.

People left comments on my blog post saying I was being “delusional”. That I would need two men to fit everything I wanted into one man. That it was “absurd and unattainable”.

But, as expected, I got everything I wanted.

Otto fit every single thing except for blue eyes (he had green).

So I’m confident in the process. But I did realize I have to change my process around. So…

…I supercharged it.

While I am VERY glad I met Otto and love him dearly… what I learned from the process is I don’t need to control so much.

The universe has a much bigger imagination than I do.

It can give me WAY better than what I even know to ask for.

So now my list is (mostly) about FEELINGS. I want to FEEL a certain way. My ultimate man doesn’t need to have read specific books, or gone to certain camps, or whatever else I had before.

I just need the chemistry. The attraction. The deep rooted love.

And I know what people might be thinking…

“Who do you think you are, Rachel?”

So many people say that when you’re clear about what you want in the opposite sex, you’ve got to judge yourself. See if you’ve got what it takes for your Ultimate to come along.

I’m not sure how I feel about this right now.

For example… I feel I have a lot of things together. I’m successful, meet friends easily, am generally well liked.

But the one thing I thought I’d need to “fix” before my man came along was to release the weight I had gained in the past few months.

I figured… a man of THIS caliber would want someone with an incredible body.

But then Jaime reminded me that it’s very possible for Him to find me beautiful just the way I am.

(The thought honestly didn’t enter my stream of possibility. I figured sure… some people could find me beautiful… but HIM?)

Once I acknowledged that as a possibility though… holy moley. I just got back from two stores. I was feeling bloated, tired, and dehydrated. But FIVE men showed interest in me at TWO stores. I found 3.5 very attractive. One guy stuttered, told me he was very attracted to me, and said several times he couldn’t believe he was being so shy around me.

I say this because I think so many people feel they need to be someone or do something else before they can be happy.

I don’t feel that’s true.

“Why are you sharing this?”

Two reasons:

1. When I got off the plane I emailed my list to two of my two best friends.

One of them told me it completely changed around her mood from super-depressed for a week…. to EXTREMELY liberated.

She said she’d never given herself permission to ask for everything she REALLY wanted. That she didn’t want to say “I want to travel first class”. It didn’t feel like she was “allowed” to ask for that.

She immediately made her own list, which she said she really feels is bringing her man in much quicker.

If it could help her, I’d love to see if it could help you too.

2. I know I haven’t answered any messages from the divorce blog post. But please believe they have touched me in a HUMONGOUS way. I was too drained to respond, but wow… the responses people gave me blew my mind.

Several people told me they were in the same situation and my post gave them courage.

One woman forwarded the post to her 19 year old son. She felt he was getting ready to marry out of obligation to his high school sweetheart.

Another person told me he could see himself settling in the future and my post may have saved his future marriage.

It goes on and on and on.

Each communication around my posts touched me PROFOUNDLY.

And because of it, I just feel like continuing to be vulnerable might help someone somehow.

Also… I’d like to acknowledge that we’re all just learning. If I’m missing something in this list, or I’m being shortsighted somehow, or whatever… I put in the last line…

“And if there’s anything even BETTER for me than what I can create on my own… I request that, please.”

Here’s what I want in my man:

(Note: As I realize new things, I’ll edit this.
It’s also pretty much unedited from the plane.)

I desire someone who will ravish me. Worship me. Look at me with looks of deep, passionate love, or lust, depending, but have huge mountains of depth of feeling on both sides.

Someone who penetrates me with his stare.

Who I feel extremely safe with. Who I know would always protect me. Would look wounded if I felt pain. Would do anything to protect me.

Who would make me feel like I can lay back and feel comfortable. He would take care of me if I needed. Is financially abundant. I can work if I want to but I know it doesn’t matter… He has enough to support me should I choose to stop working at times.

He respects me, adores me, loves me with the fiercest love he’s ever felt.

He makes me feel like I’m the most incredible woman in the world.

He supports me. He’s extremely spiritually connected. He has a deep sense of intuition and trusts mine too. He respects my femininity.

He is strong masculine.

He’s a rock.

I can sway, swirl, feel everything I need to feel, and he stands there, lovingly, receptive to anything I feel. He does not swirl in response to me… He just lovingly remains a rock.

He is delighted by my free spirit and finds it endearing.

He loves to travel and we do it often. First class. We go to beautiful places.

I can take him to events and feel like not only does he fit in everywhere, but people absolutely love him. I am so proud to call him my man.

He’s very direct but with a softness. He would never knowingly hurt my feelings. He takes my needs into consideration very deeply.

He takes care of himself but makes space for me to shower all my love onto him, which he gratefully receives.

He’s passionately romantic. Forever. He says sweet things, constantly compliments me and makes me feel beautiful, loved, smart, respected, sexy, endearing, powerful, and like I’m making a difference in the world.

He is extremely positive by nature though he isn’t afraid to surrender into other feelings.

He doesn’t let me get away with anything but my best. He calls me out when he thinks I can improve somewhere and lovingly holds my hand through it. He encourages me. I feel so supported.

I feel I can just lay back. It feels easy. I feel he’s safe, I’m safe, we’re safe. Our material needs are met abundantly and I don’t have to push for that to happen.

He’s extremely passionate about making sure I take care of myself. He loves to draw baths for me. Call my friends and ask for their help if necessary. He brings me flowers and doesn’t let me work too hard for too long. He helps me stay charged up and dynamic.

He loves my magnetism.

He loves me.

I feel I can stay myself with him. I don’t feel any need to change. If anything I just want to illuminate even more who I am. He draws out the best in me. He sees things in me I’ve never even seen.

He’s extremely generous. He is lavish at times. He supports me and my feelings.

He’s brilliant. He finds me brilliant but our relationship is not cerebral first. Once in a while he’ll ask me for hits on business stuff but our relationship is a magic place where that’s not the center. The center is creating new experiences, creating new things, loving each other, being present with each other, bringing a ton of joy into the world. We work on charitable causes and get fueled by it. We love to make an impact on the world.

I can lay back. I can lay back. I can lay back.

Not forever – but if I need to, I can. I am supported!!!

He would be honored to have children with me. He’s a phenomenal father. We have the same values. He can’t wait to take his children around the world. He’s patient, caring, non-attached to minor things and lets everyone just blossom without any control.

He knows how to surrender.

He’s open minded. He realizes we all do the best we can with what we have.

He wouldn’t dream of asking me to pay for things, especially in the beginning. It would almost disgust him.

He would raise our children to be entrepreneurial. They could do whatever they wanted, but they’d have the values instilled in them just in case.

He’s tall. At least 6 foot. With blue eyes preferably. Open to other eyes if I can get lost in them.

He respects me. He sees me as an equal, but with different skill sets. He trusts my opinion.

He playfully teases me. We goof around at times and laugh. A lot. I find him extremely funny and he’s generous with his jokes.

I feel better whenever he’s in my presence. We energetically feed each other. Not in a codependent way… We just relish each other’s energy.

We absolutely love eating healthy foods. We have access to fresh fruits and vegetables. We’re not obsessive about our health but it’s certainly something we’re cognizant of.

He cares about himself a lot. He’s constantly striving to be the best man he can be.

He doesn’t feed into drama. He will openly listen to me if I’m frustrated about something and make me feel heard and accepted, but he just stands firm and loves me. He doesn’t move around with my emotions… Though he’ll laugh when I laugh, get pissed if he feels I’ve been wronged, and instinctively want to make me feel better.

He is open and honest and communicative. He can identify his needs and ask for them. He lets me love him.

He laughs at my jokes. He thinks I’m very funny and just gets tickled by me.

He sees the best in me… Sees positive things I never saw.

He deeply feels I am his Queen.

He can’t wait to see me when we’re apart, even for a few hours. He’s okay by himself and doesn’t NEED me… But he’s still very excited to see me, and I, him.

He is worldly. He’s either from another country or comfortable going to places around the world.

He doesn’t let me push him around, yet he still deeply considers my needs and desires.

He tells me he loves me often.

We are blissful.

We hug a lot. Deep, soulful hugs.

Sex is out of this world incredible. He devours me, ravishes me, loves and adores my body.

I feel so nourished when I’m with him. My soul feels nourished. It feels so… right. We give each other energy back and forth and feel consistently fed by each others’ presence.

He courts me.

He feels I’m very special – not in a way that serves my ego, but he just feels very lucky to be with me, and I, him.

Life is magical with him in it.

He is perfect for me and I am perfect for him.

And if there’s anything even BETTER for me than what I can create on my own… I request that, please.

I had a GREAT learning lesson today.

I had to go to Western Union earlier this afternoon. I just found out a friend had been robbed and I wanted to transfer some money to him.

When I got there, the lady running the counter didn’t know exactly what she was doing. She was flipping around her screen and asking ME what she should type in for different things that I had no idea about.

I gave her my best guesses, and it seemed to work…. but when I went to pay with my PayPal card, it came up declined.

I KNEW I had money in there, and even double checked my balance on my cell phone to make sure.

The lady told me my PayPal card was a “pay as you go” card, so it wouldn’t work.

I told her (in a VERY nice way) that the card works as a debit all the time, and asked if she could please try again.

She became very agitated and told me, “Ugh, fine”.

When she did it, it came up denied again.

At this point she became VERY hostile with me and rude. I told her I was concerned because I had no other debit card, reminded her that my friend was robbed, and told her I was just trying to think of something because he had no money. I was still VERY nice about it.

Maybe she wrote me off because she thought I didn’t have funds or something, but she was so rude. She basically told me I was out of luck, reiterated that PayPal will never work because it’s “pay as you go”, walked away from me, and was really unfriendly.

When I left, I was pretty mad. I don’t know if I’m explaining well enough how rude she was, but she was extremely nasty for no reason.

I left the building seething, thinking about how I would go to another store, have it work, and then have my assistant call Western Union and the Safeway she worked at to tell them how rude and unhelpful she was.

(I NEVER complain about people, especially since people have bad days and I’ve worked retail, but she was so mean!)

I went to Fred Meyer, another grocery store, and as I figured, the PayPal card worked fine. The cashier at Safeway did something wrong.

Something in me decided to call the first cashier and tell her what happened.

When I called her, I was very nice about it. I said, “Hey, this is Rachel. You were just helping me with my Western Union. I went to Fred Meyer and it worked. I think what happened was that the other cashier put in my friend’s middle name, just so you know for next time!”

She was VERY nice and sincerely thanked me for helping her.

What did I learn out of this?

1. After I called her, I felt like the situation was resolved. Any residue of anger I had just dissipated. It was magical.

2. I stood up for myself in a “confrontational” yet kind way, which felt nice. (Normally I’d probably do nothing and just “eat” the anger, which would never REALLY go away….)

3. I actually got to help that cashier! She seemed very grateful for me telling her what happened.

All in all, it was a great learning lesson. I’m really proud to have stood up for myself and to lift the situation to something where we both left much happier.

Thanks for coming here A couple things:

1. I lost ALL contacts on my phone. If you’d like me to have your number, please message me on Facebook. My VA is going to compile one big list and give it to me. That’s because…

2. I’m overwhelmed with Facebook messages! I’ve been getting so many messages for things I do NOT use Facebook for (people wanting me to promote their products, random event invites, support tickets, etc)… and I end up getting so many that I miss the good ones.

My VA will be checking all messages. If they’re personal to me, she’ll forward them on.

I hope this doesn’t offend anyone, but I don’t know what else to do. The alternative for me has been ignoring everything which is probably way more offensive.

I just don’t have an extra hour per day to sort through messages (or more correctly, I’m not willing to create that hour, because it’s my highest choice to be OFF the computer).

If anyone happens to have any other ideas of how to best handle this, please let me know.

I’ll still be responding to all comments/wall posts… those are much easier to navigate and I quickly de-friend anyone who spams on my wall.

Thank you for understanding!

Even in making this video I learned a lesson. Last night I took a zillion takes of it, then just

forced

myself to put it out there. Today I realized that royalty wouldn’t do that , so I took one more video, feel a LOT better about it, and put it out there.

I’m obviously going to get a lot out of this exercise

And to clarify – the goal is to get from a size 8 to a size 6 by May 22. And if you guys could help hold me accountable, I would be ever appreciative!!!

WARNING: If you did not yet do this exercise, please do it NOW.

If you read this post before doing the exercise, you’ll lose all benefit of it. It only takes 5 minutes and can give you tremendous insight – so please go do it NOW!

Keep reading ONLY IF YOU’VE DONE THE EXERCISE…

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Okay, so as I mentioned, Eben mentioned that Joe Polish taught him this exercise, and it’s supposed to reveal your life purpose.

The top 3 things are things you need to accept and develop, and the bottom 3 are your shadows – things that exist in yourself but you don’t yet want to recognize.

If you write “liar” for example, remember that it doesn’t necessarily mean you’re lying to others (though that could be true) – it could also mean you lie to yourself.

Here Were My Results:

The 3 people I admired were:

Mother Teresa – unwavering faith, dedication to goal

Albert Einstein – open-mindedness and intelligence

Piperlyne (my mentor) – not accepting fear, being OK in the face of anything

I thought and thought and could only come up with 2 people I didn’t like:

A popular “guru” that I’ll leave nameless – scammy, willing to do anything for money, doesn’t care about people

A copywriting client I once worked with  – unnecessarily aggressive, liar

After I Saw My “Shadows”, I Had To Do A Double Take.

I thought, “I care about people! How could that make sense?”

Then it hit me. Hard.

I’ve been telling people I want to get out of internet marketing for years now. Being totally transparent, the whole “make-money” market kind of disgusts me most of the time.

My pattern has been that I’ll want to get out, think of a new idea that can make a good amount of money and “help people”, and convince myself that if I’m helping people, it’s OK.

Don’t get me wrong here – I believe in the products I put out, knew they worked, etc… but still – those products are NOT my greatest gift to the world. At all.

After doing the exercise I realized that putting out 99% of my make-money products is not coming from my heart. A factor is helping people, yes, but there’s also the factor of wanting instant money without having to do that much work. It’s amazing how so many people just automatically buy products without even thinking about it, and it’s beyond easy to make 5-6 figures with a good information product.

Then I started thinking…

How Can I Feel Good In A Market That Disgusts Me So Much?

My first thought was, “I know I can still help people with some of my products.  How can I do it from a heart-centered place? Or do I even WANT to?”

The first thing I thought of was to do more webinars and teleseminars so I could follow up with people to ensure their success. After thinking about that though, I realized I really don’t want to tie myself down to any weekly commitments.

Then I started thinking… why do I make products in the make-money niche?

I had a few answers:

• Good money
• Helping people
• I love when people tell me they quit their jobs
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And I asked, why do I hate the make-money niche?

• Feels sleazy often
• Many people hand me money they need in order to get something they’ll never use
• I would hate if someone I just met were to Google me and see long-form sales letters that just scream of “Scam” (even though they’re not.)
• Making money is important when you’re in survival mode, sure… but it’s not that big of a deal once you’re “comfortable”. There are a lot more important (in my mind) things that could be done to help the world – such as having people do nice things for others, inspiring people to push themselves, and really pushing their SPIRIT.
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I also realized I usually put out the make-money products when I’m in survival mode (bank account getting low, want to pay for something, whatever). Sure, I could do the offline tactics that I teach, and they work – but internet marketing is pushbutton. Put out a product, put a price tag on it, send it to the list, and bam – tons of instant money.

Again I want to be clear here that I NEVER put out crap and really worked hard to ensure quality – but still – the point is, it wasn’t coming from a super-heart-centered place, no matter how hard I tried to convince myself otherwise.

So if I ever do internet marketing again…

Here’s My Commitment To You:

I don’t even know if I will make a “make-money” product ever again.

If I do, though, it will be different.

Every product I have will have an application process with a few questions people need to answer in order to get the product. I feel this step alone will knock off 50% of people who just buy on autopilot without even thinking about what they’re doing.

If my assistant and I approve the application, I will give access to the product for free and then the customer will pay what they feel it’s worth.

If they pay nothing, it means they never went through the product. That bans them for life on all my other products.

I may also allow people to do nice things for other people as payment.

This makes me a lot happier to do internet marketing products, *IF* I ever do them, because I work with only qualified people and will only hear from those who are actually going to do something with the information I teach.

I want to mention 2 things with this:

1. Nobody has this model yet. I may continue to recommend other people’s products that ask for a set price, and they will only be products I have used and 100% believe in. I will find these ON MY OWN, so marketers… please don’t send me joint venture requests any more.

2. I have already committed to an event series with several marketers to give in-person conferences. I will continue to do that, and those conferences will have a set price. I am continuing to do this because:

a) I already committed to it
b) The price is very inexpensive compared to the value
c) I will speak about outsourcing, which is something that I could believe in, since I know outsourcing gives people the power to live a more fun-filled life. It’s just not just about make-money rubbish.

I am also not sure if I plan on changing my old products out or not. As I think about it I will continue to keep the old prices up. Most of them are with partners and I don’t want to shove this down other people’s throats.

That being said, I don’t think I’ll be doing a lot of marketing any more. It’s just not that stellar to me.

My True Goal Is This:

I want to get 5,000 people (short-term) to post on my blog with something nice they did for the world.

THAT is something that gets me jazzed and pumped. It comes from my heart and aligns with the exercise.

For the next few weeks I need to focus full time on a specific short term goal I have, and when I’m done, I’ll be doing a ton of work on this blog.

I want to get it redesigned and have it tracking people who do nice things. There will be prize giveaways and other awesome motivations, and I’m super-excited to get those rolling out.

I feel it’s high-time I started doing what my heart and spirit want again, and NOT what my bank account feels good about.

For several years of my life, I let a machine (for under $20 at your local Wal-Mart) dictate my self worth.

Back when I was in junior high, I couldn’t even go near this machine. I was petrified of it. When I knew teachers at school were going to try and make me use it, I’d fake being sick and miss school. If I *had* to use it, I’d use all sorts of tricks to manipulate it. Heck, sometimes I’d be so scared of it that I’d close my eyes when I had to use it.

As I got older, our relationship changed. I got a bit more brazen. Not only did I not avoid the machine, but every morning I’d allow it to tell me my future. This thing was INCREDIBLE – it told me exactly how my day was going to go!

If the machine gave me good news, I’d be in an excellent mood. There’d be a little more skip to my step.  My smile would be extra friendly.

On the other hand, if the machine gave me bad news, my day would be tinged with a bit of annoyance and frustration. I’d feel less worthy… less confident… less attractive.

What a powerful machine this was.

This went on and on for several years, until one day recently.

I realized how there are so many other things that dictate my self worth – like… my SELF. How I treat other people. How much I contribute to the world. How I spend my time. What I’m learning. How I’m able to empower myself and others, and a SLEW of other criteria.

And that is why I threw my scale in the dumpster and will never look back.

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I know for a fact that a lot of women (and men) feel the way I used to. Several of my female friends have confided in me that they go through the same thing I did.

If you are one of those people that could relate, I invite you to try on a few new thoughts:

1. I know someone who went down several jean sizes without the scale moving at all. She was literally shrinking by the day but feeling like she was a failure because the scale didn’t do anything. That scale is NOT an accurate measure of fat loss.

2. Even if the scale WAS a measure of fat loss, who cares? You don’t need it. Eat the foods your body asks for and get some movement in. If you listen to your body, it’ll tell you exactly what it wants. It’s the best ally you could possibly ask for. Once you truly get in tune with what it wants, you’ll be the healthiest you’ve ever been.

(Just use your intuition to know the difference between if your body is ASKING for something or if you’re CRAVING it – ie a Snicker’s bar.)

I bet you’ll save a lot of money on weight loss stuff, too.

3. Consider throwing the damn thing out – or at least giving it to someone to hold for a while. I know some people will say it’s a good barometer of where you are with your weight, it’s important to keep track, what is not measured is not managed, blah blah blah… but odds are, you’ve been measuring for a long time, and it’s only making you miserable.

I talked to an awesome guy on the phone today who gave me a great question to ask yourself. “If I would have known what I know now, would I have done it?”

His philosophy is if the answer is no, then why still do it?

If you could go back to the past with the knowledge that you would spend years making yourself miserable by giving your power to a scale, would you have done it?

If the answer is no, then stop.

Back on April 22, I started a challenge to attract certain things into my life.

Now that I’m slightly halfway through, things are interesting.

It seems like some of what I wanted just a few weeks ago is not as important to me any more, and new goals are taking the place of those. Things have been changing REALLY rapidly.

That being said, I’m still working on lots of stuff.

Here’s a play by play on what’s going on for each goal:

1. 7 days of juicing only.

I did this!! It went extremely well, I had no detox pains and had phenomenal energy throughout the entire thing. It was a much better experience than the last time and I’ll definitely be doing it again.

2. Connecting one on one with people.

This has been going great too. I have made several new friends and keep getting confirmation that this is the right thing for me to do. Take a look at this super-nice post Tim Castleman made after he visited me.

I am actually thinking of opening up my home to “x” amount of people per month. I think it could be a fun way to meet new people and do whatever I can to serve. Otto says I should charge for it and make it a business type thing, which could be a LOT of fun.

3. 1762 clients for Burn Your To Do List.

Well, as I posted in the initial challenge, that number is dependent upon a lot of factors. I can tell you that we’re converting like CRAZY right now. 19.6% of the people who find our page sign up to become a member, so it’s just a matter of getting traffic to the site. 19.6% conversions are pretty much unheard of, especially on COLD TRAFFIC to a MEMBERSHIP SITE.

Proof of conversions is right here.

4-7. Flight ticket home, to London, to Kenya, and to Dominican Republic.

I haven’t gotten any tickets yet, moreso because I’m trying to decide on the best times to go than anything else. Some of those places lose their sizzle to me depending on when I’m thinking about it, but at the time of this writing, I’m excited to go again.

8. 500 sales per month of this delicious chocolate drink I’ve been drinking.

I made a rubbish sales letter right here for it, and then lost a little bit of interest. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to continue promoting it, but as of this moment I’m interested again. Oy oy oy…

9. Tons and tons of energy as if I was drinking the chocolate drink every single moment.

My energy levels have been AWESOME! After some blood testing I realized some things I could do to make it even BETTER, which is even more fantastic.

(Some of those things include getting a cellerciser and doing rhythmic breathing)

10. Will weigh 142 pounds.

I AM SO OVER THIS ONE! That was a goal I no longer believe in, and I threw my scale in the dumpster. I’m not allowing my happiness to be dictated by a number on the scale any more. I will continue to eat healthily, exercise, and respect and honor my body. I am sure whatever I’m supposed to look like, I will look like. I’m at a super-healthy weight for a 5’8 female and I’m not putting any more tension around this.

11. A hair cut and color. This is a smaller one, but I’m overdue.

Will schedule soon

12. Starting up belly dancing again. I miss it!

Belly dancing classes are on Wednesdays, and because I haven’t been around every Wednesday, I started following along with some YouTube videos.

13. Keeping a super-happy relationship with Otto.

Our relationship is at an all-time high. We just spent the week together and had a WONDERFUL time, and we’re both looking forward to living near each other again. I can safely say we’re both more in love with each other than ever before. I know this is corny, but every time I look at him, all I want to do is hug him, kiss him, and tell him how much I love him!

Here’s a picture of us from our week:

We were walking around Santa Monica and got asked to go to the front of an audience for People’s Court (remember that TV show where they supposedly have people in the audience and they ask them their opinions on the case?). It was a lot of fun. The host just reads out the gist of each case to the audience and we give our opinions. This is a picture from between takes.

14. My income being passive again.

I barely worked while in California and the money just flowed in. I’m continuing to work on this. My amazing business manager has also just volunteered to do all my SEO on sites for a cut of the first few month’s profits, which is a no-brainer considering I haven’t done a thing on them.

All in all, I guess the major things I’ve been hemming and hawing on are the flights and Chocolate Jump. Even with those though, I’ve made great strides. I’m happy to be where I am at this stage of the game.

My 30 day “Choose-fest” is off to a phenomenal start.

I’ve been taking lots of actions in getting things done and have already seen some great results.

In order of what I’m choosing:

1. 7 days of juicing only.

I’m on Day 3 of juicing now and it’s going WONDERFULLY! It’s a completely different experience than I had last time. I still have a ton of energy, have wanted to keep drinking (last time I couldn’t even look at juice), and am feeling really really good. I feel awesome about doing this for my body and I’m super excited for all the healing going on in my body as we speak.

To make it inevitable that it happened, I enrolled everyone who reads my blog in it , put it on each day of my calendar (“Day 3 of Juice Fast!” Day 4 of Juice Fast!”), and have been making juice every night before I go to bed so I have something when I wake up in the morning (when I’m the hungriest).

2. Connecting one on one with people. I feel best when I’m off my computer and in front of people, and I’ve felt really inspired to start letting people know what I know. I don’t necessarily want to do it in a “let me teach you” authoritative style, but I do want to work with people on a friend-to-friend basis. People constantly tell me how I inspire them, and I want to do that more often.

I put an ad on Craigslist under the “strictly platonic” section , and already had 2 people respond. I also met 3 REALLY AWESOME people yesterday. I met the one guy from Twitter, and he brought his wife and mother-in-law along. I didn’t necessarily connect with them to inspire them – but it does help me in my goals of connecting more with people.

3. 1762 clients for Burn Your To Do List. This is the one that might take longer than 30 days – not because I don’t believe I can do it, but because I need to make sure we have the appropriate number of staff first. I don’t want to take on too many clients and then end up making them all upset. We’re in an awesome place with the site as far as making clients happy and I have no desire to jeopardize that.

I started on my sales letter the day I made this post.

4 – 7. Flight tickets to home, London, Kenya, and Dominican Republic.

Coming soon! The day I made my post though, my friend Steph (one of the people moving to Dominican Republic) randomly called me and said she’d be happy to host me for as long as I want when I go to the DR… and she didn’t even see this post!

8. 500 sales per month of this delicious chocolate drink I’ve been drinking. I haven’t even created a website or ordered my first batch for sale yet, but I want to start selling this super-amazing drink I’ve really been loving. It’s not part of an MLM or anything – just a delicious raw vegan drink that has tons of superfoods and antioxidants in it, and gives an INSANE amount of energy. It can be made into ice cream or in a shake, and I actually have to ration down my amounts because sometimes it gives me so much energy that I can’t even sit down. I have been really excited about selling this because it’s something I could feel awesome about. It’s a super-healthy product that really helps people… and everyone loves chocolate!

I made a tentative site last night at ChocolateJUMP.com! I haven’t edited the letter yet and still need to work out shipping costs (figured if anyone orders now, because I’m still waiting on my initial order to come in, they’ll get free shipping as a thank you for waiting)… but I finished the rough draft at 8pm last night, and when I woke up at 5:30 am this morning, I already had a sale!!

9. Tons and tons of energy as if I was drinking the chocolate drink every single moment. Thanks to both the chocolate and my juice recipes I have been feeling super-high 80% of the time, and now I’d like to up it even more.

I’m still feeling AWESOME and energetic. That being said, I’m OK if I need some downtime with the juicing. Up until now though, I’ve had endless reserves of energy.

10. Will weigh 142 pounds. At 5’8 I’m already at a healthy weight but I think 142 would be a superb goal. Your outer body reflects your inside body and with all the work I’ve been doing, it’s high time I showed it and got rid of the flab.

I didn’t weigh myself at the start of juicing so I don’t know how much I’ve released, but I know I’ve already released some. Obviously this is in large part due to the juicing. I know 6 pounds will come back no matter what (because my intestine is going to be empty after I juice for a while, and when I eat again, that will no longer be the case), but I plan on staying high raw and still juicing a ton throughout the month. This is going to happen.

11. A hair cut and color. This is a smaller one, but I’m overdue.

Will happen.

12. Starting up belly dancing again. I miss it!

I’m waiting until my juicing is over so that I don’t push my body too much, but I’ve already lined up where I’ll be taking classes (there’s a place within walking distance from my house! Yee-hah!).

13. Keeping a super-happy relationship with Otto.

Things have been wonderful with us. I can easily say we’re both happier than we’ve ever been with each other and I feel more and more in love with him every day.

14. My income being passive again. This has been happening more and more but I’d like to get it to the point where it used to be – where I could just stop working for months and months at a time and not have concern about one single email coming in to me. I drew a picture of my business bank account showing $106,817.63, and my personal account at $95,242.76. I know this isn’t millions of dollars but I want more than I could ever want or need, and I can’t see needing more than that right now. I might in the future… like I said, I’ll probably make what I choose bigger and bigger as I start making it happen.

Can you say Burn Your To Do List? Chocolate JUMP? Looking at fulfillment companies now for the latter, and I am getting less and less emails about BYTDL daily. Our management team there is just phenomenal. Jamie (my online business manager) = the highlight of my life.

So that’s it! It’s the early morning of Day 3 and I’m so excited to see what happens come May 22 when I’ve met all of these!! Can’t wait to see what my next set of choices will look like

I was talking with one of my coaches the other day, and she told me that drawing pictures is an incredible way to start manifesting what you want. Pictures really help get the subconscious on board, and actually drawing them is a lot more powerful than cutting out pictures.

My coach also gave me the assignment to choose 10 things that I want in my life every morning when I wake up (“choosing” is a lot more powerful than “wanting”). She said I’d be surprised at how quickly those things would start happening.

With her suggestion, I put the 2 together and made a poster of (a few more than) 10 things I am choosing. I put it in my bathroom so that every day when I go to brush my teeth, I can look at what I’ve chosen. With the exception of one of them (I’ll explain in a minute), I plan on having all of these things within 30 days.

Some of these aren’t huge – they’re just things I wanted when I was making the poster. Other things are much harder, but I think they’ll happen. I’m going to post progress updates on my blog and would love any support and help anyone can offer me.

Once this poster pans out, I’ll probably dare to go bigger and bigger and see what else I can come up with. Here’s what I have so far:

Full poster here.

Ignore the fact that drawing isn’t my specialty. At all.

I’ve gotta say though, even just drawing this stuff was a TON of fun! I felt so energized and in such an awesome mood! My friend called me right after I was done and he was feeling exhausted. He said just how excited I was helped him feel a lot better, and 100% of my good mood was from that poster.

Anyway, here’s what I’m choosing:

1. 7 days of juicing only. I am going to give this another go. I know it sucked the last time, but I think that’s because I did it with too many vegetables (too alkalizing) and not enough fruit. Also, I am doing this with a different intention in mind. I think it was mostly for weight loss last time, even though I may have convinced myself into believing otherwise. This time I have studied a lot about digestion and really want to do this as a way to appreciate my body and do some intense cleansing. The weight loss is a nice benefit but it truly isn’t my main goal and I’m not even weighing myself to start it off.

2. Connecting one on one with people. I feel best when I’m off my computer and in front of people, and I’ve felt really inspired to start letting people know what I know. I don’t necessarily want to do it in a “let me teach you” authoritative style, but I do want to work with people on a friend-to-friend basis. People constantly tell me how I inspire them, and I want to do that more often.

3. 1762 clients for Burn Your To Do List. This is the one that might take longer than 30 days – not because I don’t believe I can do it, but because I need to make sure we have the appropriate number of staff first. I don’t want to take on too many clients and then end up making them all upset. We’re in an awesome place with the site as far as making clients happy and I have no desire to jeopardize that.

4. Flight ticket home. I miss my family and friends in Philly!

5. Flight ticket to London, and then I want to Eurail throughout Europe. I am so excited to go explore there!

6. Flight ticket to Kenya. I’ve been aching to go on a safari for a long time now.

7. Flight ticket to Dominican Republic. My friends Steph and Todd are moving there, and my friend Bruce is already there. The fact that I love being near the water only elevates my enthusiasm a million percent.

8. 500 sales per month of this delicious chocolate drink I’ve been drinking. I haven’t even created a website or ordered my first batch for sale yet, but I want to start selling this super-amazing drink I’ve really been loving. It’s not part of an MLM or anything – just a delicious raw vegan drink that has tons of superfoods and antioxidants in it, and gives an INSANE amount of energy. It can be made into ice cream or in a shake, and I actually have to ration down my amounts because sometimes it gives me so much energy that I can’t even sit down. I have been really excited about selling this because it’s something I could feel awesome about. It’s a super-healthy product that really helps people… and everyone loves chocolate!

9. Tons and tons of energy as if I was drinking the chocolate drink every single moment. Thanks to both the chocolate and my juice recipes I have been feeling super-high 80% of the time, and now I’d like to up it even more.

10. Will weigh 142 pounds. At 5’8 I’m already at a healthy weight but I think 142 would be a superb goal. Your outer body reflects your inside body and with all the work I’ve been doing, it’s high time I showed it and got rid of the flab.

11. A hair cut and color. This is a smaller one, but I’m overdue.

12. Starting up belly dancing again. I miss it!

13. Keeping a super-happy relationship with Otto.

14. My income being passive again. This has been happening more and more but I’d like to get it to the point where it used to be – where I could just stop working for months and months at a time and not have concern about one single email coming in to me. I drew a picture of my business bank account showing $106,817.63, and my personal account at $95,242.76. I know this isn’t millions of dollars but I want more than I could ever want or need, and I can’t see needing more than that right now. I might in the future… like I said, I’ll probably make what I choose bigger and bigger as I start making it happen.

Anyway – these are what I’m choosing, and like I said, I’ll post updates here to tell you how I’m doing and what action I’m taking towards my goals. I welcome any support or comments that you have and would actually sincerely appreciate it. I’m looking forward to all of this coming true!